I know other women have had much worse experiences than I, but this is hard to bounce back from. I'm falling off a cliff hormonally from stopping all the meds and there's still some residual HCG in my system making me feel pregnant. I can't seem to make a decision about anything and that's not me at all. I usually have a plan for everything and every contingency. I'm stuck in an emotional whirlwind and can't find my direction.
Thinking about the possibility of taking a couple weeks FMLA leave if I can get it. But, not sure if taking time off work to wallow would be a good or bad thing. Maybe it would be better to have something to focus on.
Still weighing the pros and cons of moving forward with another cycle in August vs waiting until October. Looks like we won't be able to go to Italy or Ireland / Scotland in September anyway. Neither of us have enough vacation time and I don't want to travel that far for 5-6 days there.
If we postpone until October I am considering doing a fertility herbal cleanse and trying to get my weight back down 10-15lbs. Been doing a lot of reading about egg quality and ways to improve it and everything takes at least 90 days to be effective. Then again, maybe it's all bull crap and nothing I do really will make a difference and we should go ahead sooner.
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