18 Weeks 3 Days

Baby is about 5 1/2 - 6 inches long and about the size of a bell pepper

mmm now I'm hungry. :) 

Baby can recognize voices now! That's pretty exciting and scary.  Are you listening to everything I say baby? :) 

My boobs have been hurting pretty badly lately.  We have our OB appointment on Thursday so I'll mention it but I am sure it's normal.  

Not much change in MY size in the last couple of weeks, which is good.  I'm sure baby is still growing strong.

16 weeks                                              18 weeks

 

My parents and brothers came this past weekend to help paint the nursery. We got so much done! Yay for family help.  Still need to order the crib, but I have plenty of coupons for Buy Buy Baby now so we'll do that maybe this weekend if we can.  Have to go down there to order it as the coupon is only good in store and its worth 20% on a big ticket item. 

That's all for now!

17 Weeks 4 Days and yay for Prego Pants!

Baby is about 5 inches long and about the size of an onion.

Baby is starting to put on baby fat to match mommy's! :) I'm feeling pretty good. Tired and unshapely, but it's all worth it.

Baby's fingerprints are forming and he/she can be startled by noises now which is good because fetuses who regularly hear a dog barking will become babies who sleep right through it.  So please, ring the doorbell and make River bark her head off when you come see us!

My parents are coming this weekend to help us paint the nursery.  Maybe we'll have an impromptu yard sale and try to get rid of the furniture building up in the garage!

Looking forward to putting the wall decals up and getting the furniture ordered.

16 Weeks, 3 Days - New Pictures!

Baby is now weighing 3-5 oz and measuring 4-5 inches in length.  Facial muscles are developing allowing baby to make a few facial expressions.  Most excitingly baby can start to hear our voices. Tiny bones in the ears are developing :)  We need to start singing to the baby!

We had our 16 week scan this morning. Baby is measuring right on track. All parts and pieces are there :)  The technician is fairly certain of the gender, but we're not sharing people outside immediate family yet. We'll be able to confirm it in 3 weeks on our next scan.  

Here's an updated pic!

15 Weeks, 3 Days - Much Whining Below:

January is finally over.  I wish I could believe all the setbacks and sadness were behind us. First, the positive:

Baby is now the size of a large orange at about 4 inches.

I ate one of these with lunch today. It was yummy :) I bought a fetal doppler last week and have found the heartbeat several times. It's reassuring. 

Here's the bad:  I feel like much of this applies to me - http://www.babycenter.com/0_depression-during-pregnancy_9179.bc

January was a particularly stressful month, but if you look back at all we've been through over the last 2 years to get to this point, it's not surprising that I am probably depressed.  Yes, this is supposed to be a happy time but, telling me to "think positive" and "be positive" doesn't help. 

The article above indicates 1 in 10 women will suffer from depression during pregnancy and those who have had losses or gone through fertility treatments are more susceptible. I've never been on anxiety or anti-depression medication, but if I don't snap out of it soon I may have to consider my options. 

Going through 4 rounds of fertility treatments, losing one of the twins, several deaths right in a row last month.. it's just too much.  On top of that, I feel like I have no control over what's happening to my body.  12-13 years ago, I fought to lose almost 60lbs and seeing it slowly creep back on and not having the ability to work out crazy hard to fight it back is making me nuts. Yes, yes, I know it's baby and I'll lose it when I breast feed etc, but that doesn't help the emotions now.  Being short and not stick thin to begin with makes me feel like a butterball turkey!

My afternoon meeting today was cancelled so I decided to go to Macy's to the Motherhood section and see if I could find another pair of jeans that fit. I have one.  I tried on 6 pairs and nothing.  Finally found a pair of black velour / velvet lounge pants and picked up a t-shirt.   I got in my car and called Massage Envy and went and had a massage.  Felt good, but lying on my left side for 30 min was not 100% comfortable.  Came home and ordered two pairs of the jeans I know will fit online.  Sigh.

I really want sushi and a drink.