Feeling Down

Finally talked to Dr. Harris Friday night.  He really wants to do the hysteroscopy and endometrial scraping/scratch.   He doesn't suspect to find anything to biopsy, but he wants to make sure.  Plus some studies have shown the scratch can help encourage the lining to grow back stronger. So, no major cutting unless they find something strange in there.   I think the possible benefits outweigh the risks so we'll do it.  Waiting to hear from the scheduler.

We leave for Maine on Saturday. I can't wait. I've been fighting feeling really down lately. Bored with this waiting game.

It's so hard not to feel jealous, sad, and angry when others are successful at something we've been trying so hard at.  It's hard not to feel like it's a competition I'm failing at. I'm not used to failing.