Back from Hysteroscopy # 2

Back from hysteroscopy # 2. My uterus looks normal except for some "fluffy not quite scar tissue" around my fallopian tubes. He did a biopsy to test it for chronic inflammation. Dr wants to keep me on antibiotics longer this time around to help with that in hopes that it will make my lining grow more. Home resting and bleeding quite heavily. Fingers crossed this helped. Sure wasn't a pleasant experience.

Going in for Hysteroscopy Tomorrow and I have a Cold :(

We come back from vacation and Nate gets sick. Then, I get sick. YAY :(

We're still on for the hysteroscopy tomorrow morning though.   Not looking forward to the misopropostol and doxycycline again.

This article made me laugh though :)

http://mamadeux.wordpress.com/2013/06/21/top-10-crappy-things-they-dont-tell-you-about-ivf/

Feeling Down

Finally talked to Dr. Harris Friday night.  He really wants to do the hysteroscopy and endometrial scraping/scratch.   He doesn't suspect to find anything to biopsy, but he wants to make sure.  Plus some studies have shown the scratch can help encourage the lining to grow back stronger. So, no major cutting unless they find something strange in there.   I think the possible benefits outweigh the risks so we'll do it.  Waiting to hear from the scheduler.

We leave for Maine on Saturday. I can't wait. I've been fighting feeling really down lately. Bored with this waiting game.

It's so hard not to feel jealous, sad, and angry when others are successful at something we've been trying so hard at.  It's hard not to feel like it's a competition I'm failing at. I'm not used to failing.

Hysteroscopy # 2

Dr Harris called and left me a voice mail while I was at my piano lesson tonight. He has changed his mind and wants to do another hysteroscopy to see if he can determine why my uterine lining refuses to grow and possibly do an endometrial scraping to encourage my body to counteract and grow more lining.

It worries me because every time you start cutting away at something you risk damaging beyond repair and I need my uterus to be healthy. I'm not sure the risk is worth it since last time he went in there and took some samples they didn't find anything wrong.

Sigh. Another thing for me to worry about.