Just moved another 12K from savings to checking to pay for October's fresh cycle. I feel like I'm a high roller placing a bet on a lucky number. I hope 4 is our lucky number. This will be our 4th try if you count the 1 fresh that was canceled and 2 frozen.
Yesterday was really frustrating. Kaiser cant communicate internally and even though I called last month they still didnt have me on the list for October. It seems to be squared away now but so incredibly frustrating to have to project manage my own IVF!
In addition to that frustration, I still haven't had a period since after the chemical pregnancy. I had a cycle when that ended but now its been 38 days and no period. I went in for blood tests this morning, but I know I'm not pregnant since I've taken two tests recently. All of these hormones have really messed with my system.
I'm trying to decide whether or not to go back to FNS. I miss the people and the workouts but I don't want anything overly intense. Sigh.
Update - Test results confirm I'm not pregnant but the estrogen and progesterone levels are still slightly elevated from the last cycle. Dr thinks I'll get my period in 7-10 days and if not, to call him and he'll investigate further. So tired of my system being all messed up.
Wednesday, 16 July 2014
Monday, 7 July 2014
The Infertility Game
Funny, sad, and true...
Feeling crampy today and its cycle day 29 so expecting my period any minute. We actually timed things this month just to see what if, but I'm 99.9% sure it didn't work.
Looking forward to a weekend of wine tasting and being off my diet in Healdsburg.
Feeling crampy today and its cycle day 29 so expecting my period any minute. We actually timed things this month just to see what if, but I'm 99.9% sure it didn't work.
Looking forward to a weekend of wine tasting and being off my diet in Healdsburg.
Tuesday, 1 July 2014
Sigh
You know when you want something really bad and all you see is everyone else around you getting what you want so bad? Yeah, that sucks.
The random woman I met the day I went in for my HCG blood test all smiles because I thought I was pregnant, just sent me a note saying her HCG is 185. She's super pregnant. Yay for her on her first try. I am happy for her. She deserves to be happy. But, why not me too? Why does this have to be so hard?
Day two of this cleanse diet I'm on and the first day I've cut caffeine completely out. No Irish breakfast tea this morning. I may cave on the alcohol thing tonight.
The random woman I met the day I went in for my HCG blood test all smiles because I thought I was pregnant, just sent me a note saying her HCG is 185. She's super pregnant. Yay for her on her first try. I am happy for her. She deserves to be happy. But, why not me too? Why does this have to be so hard?
Day two of this cleanse diet I'm on and the first day I've cut caffeine completely out. No Irish breakfast tea this morning. I may cave on the alcohol thing tonight.
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