2nd Try at FET May 18th

We're back on the schedule to try again with a targeted transfer date during the week of May 18th, my 29th birthday.  What a birthday present huh?  God, please let me have a baby before I'm 40. 

I burst into tears when the girl in the financial dept told me we owe them more money.  We have it, its not that... its just that we keep paying for nothing.  I'm so tired of having nothing to show for all we've done and all I've suffered.  I received yet another invitation to a baby shower for a friend.  I'm very happy for my friends but I just can't.  I'll be a mess. I can't even bring myself to knit anything baby related. 

We're off to Maui in less than 2 weeks.  That makes me feel better.