Confirmed Negative. Now What?

Kaiser test came back with HCG less than .24, which is a negative.  We have been considering options including calling it and letting Sebastian be an only child.

Since we moved out of CA, I have the opportunity to change my coverage to United Healthcare and get 1 more round of IVF paid for. Still, the chances of it working are around 20%.

I'm tired. I'm 41.  I'm ready to move on from this part of my life. We've been struggling with infertility for the last 3+ years.  We have a miracle perfect child.   On the other hand, if I don't give it one last try will I always wonder?  Part of me feels like I owe it to Sebastian to try to give him a sibling.

Other options include looking into adoption or fostering.  If we want a baby the wait could be another 2-4 years.  Fostering an older child could come with some serious challenges we need to be ready to face.

I don't want to go down the path of donor eggs or surrogacy. That much I know.  There have also been some studies trying to determine if long term risks of IVF include increased chances of uterine, ovarian and breast cancers.  So far nothing has been proven, but some doctors feel it can increase risks.

Nate is supportive but leaving the decision on whether or not to try again up to me since it is my body.

Maybe we should be done. Do a show. Travel again. Give Sebastian everything we can for a happy life.

Sigh.  One thing I know for sure is I'm drinking tonight.

10dp 3dt - nope

Still negative. Blood test tomorrow to confirm what I already know.

9dp 3dt - Still Nothin

Still negative. Blood test is on Wednesday.  Feeling sad.

8dp 3dt still negative

I think it's fair to say this round didn't work.  The blood test is on Wednesday but if anything took it would most likely be showing up by now.

Trying to be grateful for what we have in our miracle baby Sebastian, but it's hard.

Looking forward to "celebrating" with some wine after Wednesday when we know for sure.

6dp 3dt (6 Days Past, 3 Day Transfer)

I know its early, but over the counter test is negative.  This time last cycle with Sebastian I could see a very faint line by this time.  Will try again tomorrow.