Feeling BLAH

The meds are making me nauseated again and are doing a number on my digestive system. I forget to eat because of the nausea then my energy drops.  Lupron by itself severely lowers the estrogen levels in the body so I'm basically going through menopause.   Hot flashes, water retention, and weight gain, yay.  Fighting depression and sheer boredom.   The puppy is helping when she's not adding to the frustration.

One day at a time.

Insomnia and whiney cats.

Lupron induced insomnia until 2 am... Then at 4 the cats decided they needed to sing the song of their people and whine for an hour. Sigh.

Lupron induced crazy dream!

Started the injections again last night.  Had a CRAZY dream.  In my dream Nate had accidentally cut the skin on my left forearm almost all the way off.  I kept trying to push it back on and it was bleeding profusely but he didn't seem to be too worried about it.

First thing I did this morning was check my arm. haha.  Crazy drugs.

So far I feel ok.  Taking a slew of supplements again - L-Argenine, CoQ10, prenatal vitamins, etc.  The Viagra and estrogen supplements start again in a week or so.

We did hear back last week that my TSH levels were slightly elevated.  The Dr insists its nothing out of the "normal" range but he would like to see it below 2.5 for fertility reasons and its currently 2.59.

I think it could explain my sluggishness lately and why I've gained about 10lbs without really changing my eating or exercise habits.  Who knows.

Baseline Normal 4.16.14

Went in for my baseline this morning for 2nd FET. Everything looks good. No cysts, etc. Lining is 3.2 to start with. I start Lupron on Sunday and all kinds of other stuff we did last time but this time starting the viagra right away. I've tried pineapple core, pomegranate juice, brazil nuts, going to acupuncture, etc. Nothing has helped my lining get past 5.2. I'll be back on Viagra vaginally, Estrogen orally 3 times a day, CoQ10, and L-Argenine. If this doesn't work nothing will.

AF Showed up and I've started the BC pills again

We're still on track for the week of May 18th for the FET.  My body finally woke up and got back on cycle this past weekend. I starting my period on Saturday and started taking the birth control on cycle day 2 as instructed.   The IVF nurse called me today to say she is going to put together my calendar for when to start the Lupron and other drugs again.  I'm not looking forward to shoving Viagra and crazy things in weird places again but I'm ready for this to succeed.

Adopting River has been good. Its not been easy but it has kept my focus off of IVF stuff.